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Hey You, Yeah You, You deserve an Epic Life | I am writing

alive-720243_1280Driving home today from work, I began thinking about what makes a person a bad person, or good person a good person and whether, that has to do with things that the universe throws at you.

I want to believe that if you strive to be a decent human being, meaning that you make decisions that are thought through and you are not out to cause harm to others than life should find a way for good things to happen to you. But, my internal struggle came from well what if you make bad decisions that can be harmful to others and/ or yourself do you still deserve to have good things happen to you. I am still pondering on this.

In my heart I feel like every single person deserves to lead the most epic life. We only get one life to live as is. Why strive to live anything but epic? If we have the power to create what we want, does that take away the desire to harm others. It got me thinking do we hurt people because of something that we are internally not happy with.

Glimpsing back at my life, when I have hurt others it wasn’t because of something they did wrong, it was something that wasn’t sitting right with me that caused me to cause others pain. I think that everything leads back to self- love and knowing you deserve an epic life. I know life throws hardships at you and not everyone has all the cards aligned to succeed but I think that everyone is capable of learning to love themselves and deal with events powerfully.

Loving myself has always been a huge struggle, only this past year have I really devoted time to myself. This year is the first time that I have put my needs first before anyone else’s. And this is what I have learned: My happiness doesn’t depend on other people. I can  still love people who are not currently in my life, because they chose to not be there. Their choice doesn’t lessen my love for them or my desire to wish them to be happy. I am blessed to wake up every morning, and I am so grateful for the people that are in my life. I truly am lucky to spend my days with people that make me laugh, that joke around with me, people that aren’t afraid of being honest, I surround myself with people who like conversations, that are open to letting me be part of their story.

Ultimately I create the reality I live in. Why should anyone but me decide what kind of life I am supposed to have? Now, I know you may be like well, what if something bad happens how do you handle it, my dad reminds me every day when something tough is happening take a deep breathe and handle it in chunks. Break up the situation, human beings are so prone to just jump into action and most of the time the situation we are dealing with is a minimum risk to ourselves but jumping and trying to solve it all in one huge chunk or not exploring your possibilities or figuring out what you are really feeling and why, leads us to make rash decisions.

I challenge you to feel your feelings, all the uncomfortable ones. I challenge you to open your heart to possibilities that you think may be impossible. I challenge you to love like you have never been hurt before. I challenge you to be honest with yourself and do things that benefit you, that make you happy, that make you want to wake up every morning running out the door to start your day.

I set the intention for myself and my life to no longer accept anything less than EPIC. I am creating epic love, epic adventures, and an epic life. I am worthy and worth it, to  live a fairytale.

BE OPEN, BE LOVING, BE FREE! You are the creator of your life, you deserve nothing less then an amazing.

ONE LOVE ALWAYS!

RINA

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You are your soulmate (I am Writing)

 

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Namaste,

Today I had this EPIC freaking powerful, incredible, mind-blowing conversation with two beautiful human beings that have changed me and my life.

Six weeks ago I had this great opportunity to partake in a program called “Relational Intelligence”. It was life changing, the one on one experience I had conversing with Matt and Amanda was mind blowing, soulful, breath- taking and most of all it was healing.

What is this program you may ask? It is a course completely based on your relationships, but the most powerful thing is although the course is targeted to work on romantic relationships, it opens so many other areas in your life that you are able to address and heal. This was great for me because I not only got to hear how to be a better communicator, how to show up for myself, and how to keep the honeymoon phase going but, I got to explore myself and patch my heart up. It all takes work, but love never dies.

I knew going into the program I wanted to work on being a better partner in romantic relationships. But, I got so much more out this program because it allowed me to start really healing myself and getting to know myself better.

So, now that all the backstory is out of the way, I want to address the title of this post. “YOU ARE YOUR OWN SOULMATE”, but how is that possible. I learned that I have always looked for someone to fill in the gaps that I wasn’t fully filling for myself. Looking at this is like looking, at a jar of round noodles and pouring water on top and watching the water, sink to the bottom surrounding all the empty space around the noodles.

You are your own soulmate, you are perfect, and you are complete. When you recognize that you are a complete being without the presences of someone else, you are creating this energy around you to draw to yourself a person that will be the icing to your cake. While you are cultivating that energy, you have the time and space to play and find yourself. Who are you as a person? What are you passionate about?

So, who the hell is Marina? I can tell you that, I am a lover of people. I love knowing people’s stories. I am a being that wants to love not only myself but shower and surround the universe with love. I am FIRE, I burn with passion for things that I love. I want to change the world, I want to grow, I want to learn, and I want to burn like the brightest flame in the sky. I will change the world, I will continue to be a lover of man-kind. I am complete and I am whole. I am so excited to continue learning about myself and playing through life. I am enjoying exploring areas of life that are new to me, and which I am curious about.

With that, I set an intention for future relationships. My intention is to be with someone who I can grow with, someone who is my best friend and an equal in the relationship. I want  a lifetime of adventures.

Ultimately, I also set an intention for all relationships, friends, family, co-workers etc. My intention is that I want to surround myself with individuals that will help me grow, explore, converse, and adventure with me. I want to have powerful relationships in all areas of my life.

(I’ll add all information to connect you with Relational Intelligence when I am provided with it from Amanda and Matt.)

Excited to play, Excited to love, Excited to explore.

One Love,

Rina

 

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Someday’s (I AM WRITING)

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Someday’s I miss you. And I feel so freaking guilty about it. This guilt, is like a sitting  rock smashed in between the top of my rib cage, at the base of my throat.

Someday’s I just feel stupid about missing you. But, then I don’t feel stupid because my feelings are valid. And its okay to feel because I am human.

It’s crazy to think that time, can be such a huge factor. Time.  A simple, thing constructed of a circle, with numbers and two hands on it. But, controls every aspect of our lives.

It gives us our somedays. The hopeless optimist in me, says somedays, are a form of hope. Something to look forward too.

But, the realist in me wonders about somedays, like why wait until someday when someday can be today. But, then things may not fall into your todays, then become your somedays. Like someday, I’ll graduate from college because I can’tsphinx physically do it today, or someday I’ll fall in love again, or someday I’ll own a sphinx.

Our somedays are this accurate force, that means once in a while, or in the future. Which, brings me back to my somedays.

I pride myself on being  a person, who hurts silently.  I have put on this facade, that when people leave my life, I’m 100% okay, without them. And for the longest time that facade worked for me, for if I was okay with being walked way from, then I couldn’t get hurt. This shelter method started after my biological-dad moved, and I had to be okay with it. There was no stopping it, there was no pleading for  him not to go, it just happened. Eleven year old me, had to be okay with it. My facade has been bullet proof ever since, well maybe apart for that one time like 4-5 1970-chevrolet-el-camino-steve-mcqueen-688x340years ago.

Which brings me back to my somedays. My somedays consist of thoughts of owning a el camino. An orange one to be exact with a black race strip going through the middle. (Picture credit to GMauthority)

My somedays exist of writing a book, about anything just to leave some footprint on this earth. I have a feeling it will be a book of thoughts and journal entries with magazine pictures taped into the pages. A messy book, like my life, which is whirlwind of thoughts feelings and emotions.

My somedays, involves stargazing and cowboy boots. Dusty roads, and country music.

My somedays include a love so fierce that it lights up the entire universe.

My somedays involve books, stories and adventures.

My somedays include bonfires, and get togethers with amazing individuals I am incredibly lucky to call my friends.

My somedays include still missing you, but being okay with it.

With this I set this intention, for happiness, love full of excitement, friendships so strong nothing can break them, adventures that include the need for cowboy boots, and a simple way of living through the magic of it all I create the adventure of a life time.

ONE LOVE ALWAYS,

RINA

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To Life:I am Writing

 

life-1662879_1280Does once upon a time really exist

Is it in your mind, or is it in your dreams

Do words on the paper really mean anything

Are your love letters just that, letters spilled on paper

Over a bottle of wine

Delirious

I am no angel

Although I tried hard to please

But, really does once upon a time even exist

Sometimes I ponder

How I show up in your mind

Just a girl that you can dismiss with a blink of an eye

But, I am so much more than that

But you’ll never know

Because you chose to walk out my open front door

And maybe one day, you will chose to knock again

I leave with no promises, for I am ready to heal

To feel what I need to, for it all to sink in

What I learned on this journey is

I love who I love, I feel what I feel, I MATTER and my life isn’t about a destination

Its the journey of LIVING!

TO LIFE, L’Chaim,לְחַיִּים